Ahhhhh, where did I go to? I ask myself that often.
I've posted before about being a hopeless blogger. I am, really am. I posted last about things changing in my life - my Mum had been diagnosed with bowel cancer at that time and I didn't really know where things were headed. Sadly, she died in March this year, only two months after her diagnosis.
Since then, I've struggled. A lot. There's so much going on in my head. I miss Mum so much. I don't think I ever realised how much I would miss her when 'that' time came, but then I guess I never thought it would come when I was only 41 years old. My kids miss their Nanna too. They talk about how 'your Mum died. She was our Nanna.' They do seem to be dealing with it in an okay manner. Much better than me. I've dealt with it by hitting the food big time. Any weight I had lost pre-Christmas is now back on again. I'm now looking down the barrel of returning to work in early July and desperately want to lose some weight before I do, but I'm like an addict. I can't give the 'bad stuff' up!
Anyway, enough for now. I'm going to try to post more. There's so much that has happened since Mum died - family stuff that I need to share and get off my chest. Hopefully it will help me to feel a little better and maybe stop stuffing my face! xo
