I am a hopeless blogger! I don't know how many times I've started blogging, promised myself I'd post at least weekly, then given up........ I'm hopeless at it. I guess I don't think at the time that I have anything interesting to say.... I also struggle with time - that is, child free, partner free time.
Well here we go again!!!
I'm posting tonight about exclusion. Have you ever been excluded from something that your friends are doing? You find out about it, and are left wondering why you haven't been included? Maybe it was completely innocent, but if you are a bit of a sensitive person like me, you still get hurt. You are left feeling a bit insulted, thinking that you must have done something wrong. I detest that people have that sort of control over me - hate it, hate it, hate it. I'll guarantee that they don't even give it a second thought, but I do. Maybe I'm too sensitive.
I've been struggling a lot lately with parenthood. I never, ever thought it would be as hard as it is. My kids are 22 months apart and at the moment they are fighting ALL THE TIME! My husband and I are fighting a lot too - maybe in part because of the way the kids are behaving, but then maybe they are feeding off the tension between the two of us. I just feel like I am getting no time at all. Most people say that I need to make sure I get time to myself, but you see, I don't want to have to leave my home to do that. I enjoy spending time doing things in my home - not cooking things or cleaning things or domestic things. Things like organising photos, sorting out my cupboard, stuff like that. Unfortunately, dear hubby can't let me do these things without limiting them or bringing the kids in to me. Bugger.......
Anyway, the weekend starts tomorrow. There is a festival on in town which we usually attend with some friends of my husband, but they are away for the weekend which doesn't disappoint me. I am looking forward to some family time - some happy time where the kids can run round and create havoc if they want, and we can sit back and relax a bit. Hopefully the weather here will improve. Maybe it will rain at the beach or something (heheheheheh.... ) but that's another story for another time!!!
Cheers!
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